Ronan

Have you heard the song titled Ronan by Taylor Swift?

If not go here and watch the video to hear the song! 

Warning: It will make you cry! 

It's about a little 4 year old boy who passed way from cancer!

Taylor Swift was inspired by the blog that his mom started about their journey!

I first heard it the other day when I was counting down the minutes until I could put Emeri to bed! Braeden was at school and I was excited to have some downtime, not to mention my patience have been so thin lately! I feel like a terrible mom these days because I get frustrated with Emeri for the littlest things and then I realize, after I have already gotten upset at her, that I'm being a very grumpy mom and not being patient with my baby! 

She's not even two yet for heavens sake! 

Everyone says this is normal towards the end of your pregnancy! It must have something to do with being so excited for your baby to get here that your patience is running out!? Still even if it is normal I would rather not be so irritable!

Anywho... So I was counting down the minutes until I could put my baby to bed and I hear this song!

 I started to bawl!

 How could I want my baby to go to bed? I shouldn't take for granted that I have this perfect healthy little girl that I get to snuggle and spend every day all day with! 

How could I be so selfish? 

I picked up my little girl, danced with her to this song, gave her lots of hugs and kisses, and told her how much I love her and how lucky I am to be her mommy! 

Then I rocked her and snuggled her forever soaking up what it means to be a mommy before I laid her down in her bed with one last kiss and I love you! 

I then immediately went and downloaded the song so I can listen to it over and over and over again so I never forget what it means to be a mommy and never forget how lucky I am to be a mommy to Emeri and Baby Boy!

I'm so thankful for my little ones! Man oh Man I love them more than I ever thought I could!

Here are the lyrics:

RONAN 

I remember your bare feet
Down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor
Plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back

I remember your blue eyes
Looking into mine
Like we had our own secret club
I remember your dancing before bedtime
Then jumping on me waking me up

I can still feel you hold my hand
Little man
And even in the moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guard
Remember I, leaned in and whispered to you

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

I remember the drive home
When the blind hope
Turned to crying and screaming why
Flowers pile up in the worst way
No one knows what to say
About a beautiful boy who died
And its about to be halloween
You could be anything
You wanted if you were still here

I remember the last day
When I kissed your face
And I whispered in your ear

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Out of this curtained room
And this hospital grey will just disappear

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

What if I'm standing in your closet
Trying to talk to you?
And what if I kept your hand-me-downs
You won't grow in to?
And what if I really thought some miracle
Would see us through?
And what if the miracle was even getting
One moment with you?

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here

Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years

I remember you bare feet
Down the hallway
I love you to the moon and
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